BOO - Adrian Wyllie

Halloween. One of those more children oriented holidays. People like the scare factor associated with that holiday. I have never really been one to celebrate it. But onto my topic. The thing that scares me. I know this answer well, It has woken me multiple times in multiple nights, I find myself in a cold sweat, my skin crawling with goosebumps.
The one thing that terrifies me, the one thing that I cannot hyperbolize further, is to lose everything. To wake up one morning, and find nothing left, not even burning ruins of what I once had. I have lost too much in the past, and have too much to lose still. I stand on a rooftop. I am facing the building towering over me, and I know, I could have been there, or I could be at the ground.
I really miss the things I have lost, and sometimes it can be too much. I still have my friends and family, but I know that anything could happen that could take away even those. Things are happening, to take away those. It's just how things are.
I can do nothing, sometimes, but wait for everything to crash down around me. I will stare off, and I see the possibilities, there are too many. This is more than a fear. It is a condition. I know it well. I have accepted it. It is to happen. If not now, then later, and if not, Then soon. It all falls. That is life. That is death. I cannot say any more.